I’m not the most confident of people.. if anything I’m quite insecure when I’m in the company of others. I look at those around me walking and talking with confidence and all I can think is, ‘I wish I could present myself in that way’. I was never the popular one in school, college, or university. I was the shy, quiet girl who spoke only when spoken to. And looking back I wonder what made me develop all my insecurities. Am I who I am because of my insecurities? Or are my insecurities stopping me from being the real me? I’ve carried insecurities in many areas of my life with my appearance being a big one. I often felt insecure about the way I look, and as I grew older this need to look a certain way stuck with me and grew bigger. Nowadays I see all these make-up tutorials showing new ways to highlight and contour and all sorts, and I’m amazed at how much one can transform their face. Straight away I thought this could help steer my insecurity away and I went and bought everything that I could to help make this a reality. I’m that woman that wakes up avoiding eye contact with the mirror, and then when I slap on my make-up I feel like a new person! There’s a new found confidence and self-esteem, and I feel a different energy about myself which I absolutely love. Every layer of make-up adds something exciting! I plaster my face to reveal a glow that reflects my ideal self. This make-up me attracts attention and turns heads. This make-up me seems to gain respect and can hold conversation with strangers. This make-up me is stronger, sharper, and someone people want to know more about. This make-up me is all in my head!! Who am I kidding? The moment I wash my face I feel shitty again. I’m living this double life and I need to get a grip. Sometimes I just can’t understand myself, and I need someone who can help me connect with myself.
Here at Inspire Therapy, we offer you the space to talk about how you feel so you can further explore your emotions and find out where they stem from. We are here to work with you to help see you through your difficult times.
